I appreciate the emotional support and kind words you’ve shared.
I didn’t know Cassie was going to post anything, although I have a fairly good idea why she did, in hindsight.
I posted what I did about Noblegarden, not because I was inflamed so much at one person, but because as I said, he represents to me every immature asshat that I encounter that makes me wonder why I play this game in the first place.
I love the game of WoW. It’s magnificent. The depth, the sheer massive weight of content, the layers of involvement. It’s a stunning edifice within which we roam free, always finding something new in some previously unexplored room.
I love the people in my guild. I know I am biased, but each and every one of them is a nice person, a person that I enjoy saying hello to and meeting anew when I log in. Sometimes I feel pressured by my position as a guild leader, but never by the people within the guild. Only by my own sense that there are responsibilities as a guild leader that require my frequent presence, even during those times when I don’t feel like being around anyone else at all.
But I despise the aspect of the game that requires me to have to interact with immature little dolts that I would never bother talking to in real life. Strangers who have the power to annoy, to grief, to be asshats and revel in it.
I am now over 40 years old, and I feel I’m a little past the point in my life where dealing with that crap makes any kind of sense.
I choose to play a video game for enjoyment… and I wonder with growing frequency why, exactly, I am in effect sticking MYSELF in High School with the idiots and immature morons.
It constantly amazes me. This is an internet comunity on the blog, and an internet community in WoW. You have the power to be judged SOLELY on how you present your ideas, how you communicate with others.
Judged not by race, sex or sexual orientation, age, financial status, what school you went to or what side of the tracks you’re from. None of that bullshit matters here.
Nothing but pure communication of your ideas. How you choose to act. How you choose to type.
In what voice you choose, of your own free will, to create your online persona.
That so many people choose to be asshats when given this incredible freedom. It baffles the living shit outta me.
It seriously makes me wonder what the hell I’m doing writing here or playing WoW. I didn’t like the majority of the idiots I went to High School with the first time, why in the world would I want to go back and roll around in it?
Someone asked why I needed Cassie to play the heavy, or something like that.
I didn’t need Cassie to “play the heavy” for me, I told Cassie last night that I was done with it. The blog, the game, the whole damn thing.
Apparently, she got tired of my having lost sight of what’s important, and posted something to wake my ass up to what is real.
The vast majority of people I meet, both in the game and on the blog, are NOT asshats.
Most of you don’t comment, and you shouldn’t ever feel you have to.
Some folks comment nice stuff frequently, and I come to know them and look forward to seeing these friendly souls and hearing their thoughts and opinions.
And some asshats come by to dump their crap, and think that this is a public forum where they have the right to do so, and by God don’t they get outraged if I dump their idiocy in the spam filter.
It is so very, very hard to keep in mind sometimes that the silent majority that read and move on are not represented by the asshats.
Which, of course, is what Cassie was trying to remind me.
Amongst other things.
I had decided to quit, both the blog and WoW.
And saying “Don’t give the prick the satisfaction”, much as I love that sentiment, isn’t really a rebuttal. There is no one idiot that can take credit for chasing me away.
It’s the very nature of the game that is the issue.
And what I needed to come to grips with, is the fact that there will always be emotionally stunted idiots and flamebait in the game, and I need to decide for myself whether or not dealing with these kids occasionally is an acceptable price to pay, to be able to spend time with my friends in the guild, and do all the other little things I love.
Reading your comments, spending time with my guildies tonight… I have to say that yes, yes it is worth it. The harassment of fools and children is minor when compared to having fun with friends.
It’s still there, it’s just minor shit.