Short mention here, as to where my heads’ been at when writing on the blog this last week.
I set a goal to, for a change, get some useful new Bear tanking posts up to help those who may suddenly find themselves looking to break into the world of tanking.
All things considered, I think that I’ve achieved what I wanted in the short term, and with the help of some great commenters I think the sidebar of Wrath posts provides some solid starting information for new Bear tanks without getting too technical.
Once that was done, though, my heart was set on writing the next installment of the Converging Forces story.
Every day for about a week and a half, I’ve been thinking of the next part, running things through my head, having internal dialogues between characters, visualizing the scenes, thinking and thinking and thinking.
As you can see…. no post.
Every day I sit down, and I have a choice about writing.
Write something I can break in and out of multiple times while getting continuously interrupted with critical issues, 10 minutes here, 5 minutes there, until I proofread it enough times it’s legible, and let it go forth. And then fix the typos and missed phrases and unwritten sentences that I always seem to have after you get them in your feedreader.
Sit down and write something that flows, from the heart, telling a story that has been years in the crafting, and where things are building to a point that excites the hell out of me. Something that requires absolute immersion in the flow.
Yeah, you’ve been getting the bit pieces.
It’s funny, really. I can write and write, and really be into it and it’s flowing…
But there is a big difference for ME between creative writing in a blog style about the game or life, and creative writing while developing a true story.
It’s just not the same.
It’s not that blog writing is throwaway words, and a story is somehow more valid. It’s nothing like that. They’re both something I truly enjoy and invest myself in equally.
It’s more how deeply I need to immerse myself in what I’m writing.
Like right now, for example. Just had an emergency that I had to take care of that took me away for a few minutes before I wrote this sentence. I came back, and had to see where I was, recapture my thoughts, and pick back up.
When I’m writing an actual story, it’s not just a ‘oh, that’s where I was’.
It’s far, far more jarring when the words are flowing like a river, and you get stopped every 5 or 10 minutes. Coming back and trying to get that flow going again is really damn hard.
So, I’ve been falling back on writing that I can do in snippets.
I just wanted you to know, this isn’t a resolution or anything. I am just at a place where I really, really want to be doing more creative writing. That’s what I’m working towards.
Every day, my goal for the day is to write Converging Forces.
Every day that doesn’t happen, is a day I haven’t followed my heart.