I am not sure what’s going to happen to the future of the blog.
Right now, at this moment in time, I really feel that I’m done.
I’m not playing games, or begging for attention, or trying to screw with anyone’s feelings. I’m just telling you how I feel.
I’m very, very tired of a lot of things right now, mostly having to do with trying to make life happier for other people related to WoW, and failing.
What I don’t know is whether or not I can quit writing. I feel like I should. I can’t understand how a person could feel the way I do, as depressed as I am about game and people related stuff, and still be able to write something chipper and upbeat while being me.
And yet, time after time, stepping up to the blank blog page somehow brings out an inner cheeriness. As though, no matter how depressed I am about other things, sitting down to talk to you folks brings my spirits up.
That’s a hard habit to break. But great, that’s what I get out of this. No matter how I may have felt when I sat down, you always bring me back up.
But what do YOU get out of the deal? Some depressed old Bear grumpily bitching, pissing and moaning about something that doesn’t really matter?
Fine, I don’t know. What DO I know?
I know that I’ve got to figure out if there is actual, positive value to my writing this blog beyond making me feel better for a little while. Because I sure as heck have no intention of draggin’ anyone else down with me.